Dream for the blind

My world is diminishing with every breath I take,

A conscience effort to make right goes all in vain.

Crowded by this cumbersome feeling,

I wonder, whether there is any escape?

The condition is petrifying and demotivating,

It feels like a heightened state of tension,

The questions that arise are fast and loathsome,  

And the answers are beyond my comprehension.

I have always let my tiny mind, magnify the agony,

Thinking and worrying I punish myself again,

Dejected, rejected yet never resurrected,

I walk alone through the path unknown.

Through the fallen leaves and the stones,

Among all the troubles that hurt my present,

There finally comes a vision to my mind,

When I think of an eye and dream for the blind.

(Pic courtesy: http://www.zingzoo.com/2013/02/14/riveting-vision-breakthrough-for-the-blind/)

Sister

They thought for months and plied you would not be born,
Kept their fingers crossed and prayed to god till the candles burnt,
They tried more than once, and hoped it wasn’t you this time,
Finding the sex of the foetus is all they wanted to determine. 

They didn’t care about your first cry or the first smile,
They didn’t see your tender hands and feet so fragile,
They didn’t watch over you when you took your first steps,
All they saw was a boy’s face who had to be in your place.

Oh sister, little sister, you have a choice.
Oh sister, little sister, you have a voice.

There is no use they said when you wanted to learn,
Go to the kitchen they said, and make the woods burn,
When you started to play and have some rejoice,
They slapped you in the face and enforced you to devoice.

Oh sister, little sister, you have a choice.
Oh sister, little sister, you have a voice.

So let them try to stop you now, lay hurdles in your path,
Don’t stand down or give ever up, even if the way is black,
Take you stance and fight for your right, as there is a long way to go,
Don’t ever feel helpless and alone, even if they tell you so.

UnMalala

All I wanted- was a father on whose shoulder I could rest my head,
a mother to stand by me, who could teach me the ways of life.

All I wanted, was to be a sapient and read a few books,
to learn a little, and to know a little more,
Talk what I felt was right in the country so frail,
And to go to school with my friends not covered in veil.

All I wanted, was to have a little freedom,
Wear the things I like, and dance to my rhythm.

All I ever wanted, was to be at peace even in a state of war,
Strive ahead to learn, and teach them all,
From the ones so young, those carry a gun,
To the ones so old, who ought to drop the weapon.

All I ever wanted, was to go to school and play with my friends,
and return back a happier and a wiser person.

All I wanted, was to live a regular life that is promised to a child,
when they are ushered with hope, happiness and reliance,
to grow up in this mundane world and be successful,
and learn to give it back in right time, to be more respectful.

All I wanted, was to be fearless, and do the right.
To live by the truth, and walk with my head held high.

All I wanted, was to fulfill my dreams and reach my destiny,
The thing that people call the motive of life,
But, when I walked through the school corridor to take a test,
I breathed my last, when I took three bullets in my chest.

My father wasn't allowed to weep, and my mother couldn't cry.
As I was left blood stained, with empty shells, abandoned, to die.
All I ever wanted, was a life that was free,
all that I eventually got, was what they had decided for me.


(Above inserted pic is taken from a video: Jawab de )

Mother.

Hello mother, my mother, can you hear me?
I haven’t slept in a while and I didn’t want this to be,
Behind this pantomime, I have become a body of inevitable lie,
Constantly terrified and this is not what you wished for me.

Oh mother, tell me now, what to do and who to be?
Battling this life, I am frequently and decisively intrigued.
Behind this network of masks, still lies your child,
Helplessly alone, thinking about you all the time.

Tell me mother, if a wrong can be made into a right,
Will my past frequent me with torment and dismay?
Or will my sins come undone for an emotionless final foray.
Oh! How I wish you would be here, but you, you are so far away.

Forgive me mother, for I tried my best and yet I have failed,
All your teachings and education have gone in vain,
Its time to sanctify my soul and liberate my mind to pasteurise the fate,
Please don’t wait by the door tomorrow, because I will be late.

So Far Away

The rain is always beautiful, if you have a home.

The return is always wonderful, if the person waiting is your mom.

Sometimes it feels miserable and all alone,

Sometimes it feels you are still there and I am not on my own.

Sometimes in the dark when I am scared,

I turn on the lights to ward off the pain.

Relentless and in dismay,   

I call out your name, but you are so far away.

Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night,

And only a lullaby can make me sleep tight.

I advance ahead to kiss your face so grey.

I am all alone, because you are so far away.

 

I see your smiling face in a photograph, and I wish you were here.

To revive me with your grace, ever so clear.

Somewhere very close and whispering night and day

Then when I open my eyes, I realise, you are so far away.

When tears roll down my eyes,

And I try to find solace in compromise.

When I close my eyes and realise,

I miss you in silent thoughts and in woeful cries.

And it still doesn’t feel that you are gone,

You will come by and hold me when I am down.

Keep me away from falling,

Lend me a shoulder for crying.

I stretch my arms for the comfort,

Then I realise that I am still hurt.

Now my life starts to go astray

Then I wake up to find, you are still so far away.

Untitled- by Raahi

The night dawned and her thought came to mind,
This questions haunts, why is love so blind?
Until now, a smile rested on the lips,
But all now seems hidden by an eclipse.

The twinkling eyes did such a wonder,
Wherever they turned, they seized plunder.
There is an intoxication in the way you see,
I always find a reason to watch you and take glee.

To love thee is my life, to love thy was my bond,
I was shattered and shocked when you did respond.
You inhabited my world, which now lays waste,
Tell me, was not my affection chaste?

Everyone divided their share of happiness,
And I was left with my chunk of distress.
Thank me, bless me, that I made you a murderer.
I will now stand in front of this world, a perjurer.

I cry because I lost my heart.
Why do you laugh, what have you got?
May you lose your heart like I lost mine,
Then you will realize that love is divine


_____________________________________ By RAAHI.